Quake (Russian Player)
Maybe someone will be interested.
I played this game in 1998-2000 on our local server in Yoshkar-Ola, until it was shut down. I don't remember working on mistakes or developing any strategies. I played it purely for fun – pew pew pew, you know. And, well, I was too young to think deeply.
Decades later, a small group of local Quake players came forward with a proposal to organize a tournament. It was in February 2020.
I was probably the only one who was obsessed with trying new hobbies. I had to prepare myself to take the first place. And I did it.
After the tournament, I found out about the QW community, Discord chats and online tournaments.
It was a big mistake. A big mistake!
Instead of patiently going about my business, I threw myself into the game. I was constantly thinking about how to become better, what victory consists of, what my mistakes are, how the opponent moves, how their psyche can work with this or that score, how my psyche can work in a similar situation…
I couldn’t rest. I would like to add that chat rooms, which I never really used, affected my behavior.
Constant provocation on my part and the lack of understanding of reality made themselves known. It was like two sides of a coin. On the one hand, there was an insatiable desire to be better, on the other hand, constant stress and conflicts.
Well, I had to go through that too. Now I don't feel that kind of passion. I don't have the same motivation. And that's for the best.
I think you can find the weak spots of your psyche thanks to the game. Work them out. And surprisingly, this will accelerate the improvement of your gaming skills.
It shocked me.
Before that, I couldn't allow myself to study game recordings. Apparently, because of pride.
But let's go back to the spring of 2020. Like other adults, I have important goals in life. And these goals suddenly wake up and say, "Listen! This is an opportunity! You need to make an effort, win tournaments, and do what you always wanted to do, write a book."
Years later, it's funny to hear myself say that. Write a book. Why? For whom? Who will benefit from this? Let this idea just be.
But at least now I can say for sure, thanks to this path I recovered mentally. A calm understanding of the game results or chatting. Now there is no obsession, hatred, and anger.
Well, I can say that computer games are ennobling. At least they provide this opportunity to everyone. Not without medical intervention, of course. In the form of consultations or pills that sober you up from the obsession of youthful stubbornness.
As for the suspicions... The dishonesty of the game. Deception. Transparent walls. Auto-aim. Timings.
Have you ever met a hungry, angry man, dissatisfied with his place in society? Have you ever read about such characters in books? The famous novel The Count of Monte Cristo? Or when some kind of malfunction occurs in a person, perhaps because of egocentrism, lack of love, loneliness, the desire to help and be useful to people, and all this is the quintessence?
Let me answer this. Such a person will put everything they have on the line. They will risk their peace of mind in order to achieve their goal. And they can't be calm, initially. It's a constant feeling of remorse, discontent, a constant desire to prove something. Probably just to get attention.
The funny thing is that this person absolutely does not understand what they are doing, how they are doing it, what they are risking.
This person has no choice. There are only two of them: fight or die. And there's not even a choice to die. Just push-push-push all the time.
And what will it do? The results!
Which ones? High results in a short period of time.
And then? Then, sadly, the body burns out quickly.
Who needs this?
I can say, there is no need to go down this path. But if you find yourself on this path, there is a solution. Take into account all the possible ways to help yourself. And, hopefully, it won't be too late.
I hope I answered your question.
(c) Quake
Setup
- Monitor: AORUS KD25F @ 240 Hz
- Mouse: Reddragon Memeanlion honeycomb
- Keyboard: SVEN
- Pad: a4tech x7 gaming
- Earphones: Havit H2002D
- OS: Windows 10
Achievements
| Year | Place | Event | Mode | With | Prize |
|---|---|---|---|---|---|
| 2024 | 1st | RQWL Season 17 | 1on1 | 250 |
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